Sigh... due to certain unforseen circumstances, I have decided to propose a long-d (distance) relationship. Sigh i noe, everyone will be laughing at me now, thinking im a failure. Sad. It's okay. I dun care about how others think. I care about how u think. And i hope u think the right way.

Hm people will think that i was dumped. Seriously, the reasons why I have proposed this was due to several reasons.

Firstly, due to us not wanting to affect our homework. In this stage of life, where it concerns your future, you have to be decisive. Prioritize. Make sure that your first priority is always studies. Studies should take precedence. Seriously. As chongmin has suggested. And as what my mum always say. Study hard, get a gf later in life oso can.

Secondly, we want to be free. A relationship is difficult to keep, maintain and we are only 16. We muz keep our options open to everyone, and not limit ourselves to only 1 guy/gal, like what we r doing now. Sigh. I hope from this, i noe i still like her the most, but i hope that she wun get jealous when i go after other gals. Cos it's normal. Open ourselves to more people, foster more friendship and perhaps relationships, then choose the best one later in life.

Thirdly, because of our parents. Particularly mine. The 31st cold war has just erupted between me and my mum. Over her. And she feels sad. Sigh what should i do? Make my mum happy by not going steady and neglect her for the time being? Results in a long d relationship. Sigh.

Fourthly, she is afraid of hurting me. Bad. Always when i fell too deep she's quite concerned. So am I. So we keep a distance from each other, will definitely decrease our desire for each other.
And she agreed to go as far as hugs. Im not despo. I dun want to hug her. I just want to get closer to me. Make her noe i care. That im beside her when she needs me. Esp when she cries.

And she agreed to my "proposal". Im glad. So im gonna call her only once a week. Yupp. And that is the only time we can be together. That's our time. Friday/Sat morn, 12am. Set.

In school now. Doing stupid things like blogging. Haiz. What to do? Sch life is boring. Together with Terence and Chongmin. Now. Physically. But my heart is somewhere else. Somewhere deep down within, in your heart.

Love u. Love school.